Seeing each one on my children becoming their own individual selves. Seeing their strengths shine through on their hardest days. Knowing that they lead with their hearts over any selfish wants they have. Everyday seeing them play with their baby sister and willing to drop anything just to spend time with her when they are already young adults and have lives of their own. They all still just want to be home watching a movie or playing a card game as a family.

PATIENCE! Above anything else I have learned to have a massive amount of patience. I have also learned to never forgot the child in me. What we all forget when we grow up! Things we liked, the things we didn’t like when we were kids, and I tried to bring that into my parenting. I had to learn the boundary between being their parent and being their friend. In order to have them open up enough to tell me all the things that they’re going through, but also be the parent they can lean on.

I would first use it towards better medical care for me so I can finally have a diagnosis to my health issues. I will also spend it towards our me home in a new state for a new brighter beginning. I want to raise my youngest daughter the way I did in a state that is green and beautiful where she could play without fear and raised in community. For my older children to put down roots and have a fulfilled life with opportunities the state we are currently in does not offer.