Motherhood is just beautiful in so many ways but the devotional unconditional adoration and love your baby gives you even on the days that you aren't your best, that's unmatched. That constant reminder that someone loves you no matter what. Watching them sleep peacefully next to you in all their perfection. Feeling them search for you in your sleep because you're their safe place. That reminder that no matter where you guys may be you are their home . You are love.

The biggest lesson motherhood has taught me was to soak in the moments and really cherish them. There have been so many moments where things were falling apart for me and I couldn't value the time that I was in. I sometimes sit back and reminisce of the pictures and videos I have of the past and think of the head space I was in at that point in time and wish I could go back in time but unfortunately, I can't. I've learned that the days may feel long but the time is so very short.

With 20,000 I would love to pay off some of my debt to make our day to day life easier and invest in my small LLC that I've recently started. This LLC will hopefully be a foundation for my son's future so he may never have to struggle to get started and do the things he wants to do come adulthood. Some of the things that I'm sure a lot of us wish we had, a foundation and a concrete place to start where we don't have to "start in the mud".